Life is a funny thing. One day you’re super productive and happy and the next day you feel like a worthless piece of floating trash who will never find love, success, or happiness! LOL fun, right?
Let’s take this past weekend as an example. I moved to Kansas City, MO earlier this month from Texas (don’t ask why), but last weekend was the first time that I wasn’t traveling for work. So what’s a boy to do with a free weekend other than walk around his new city, enjoy a vanilla latte coffee at a farmer’s market, and do laundry? The problem is, that only filled up 5 hours of the day, which as I’m sure you folks know, is typically 24 hours long. So that means after the fun, I was sitting in my apartment watching an Australian show about how weird young adulthood is (8/10, do recommend) and thinking negative thoughts!
Am I bumming you out?
This is probably a relatable situation for just about anyone. We have grand ambitions and reasons to be happy, but when the realities of life hit us in our beautiful faces, we feel like we’re not making any progress. It probably doesn’t help that the Hamilton soundtrack is full of songs about him working really hard and becoming super successful. God, if only there was a war… Then we could prove that we’re worth more
Than anyone bargained for.
My point is, be mindful of your mental health and take care of yourself. Because if we don’t, we’ll experience a “downward spiral,” a term I learned from a mood-tracking app called Moodpath (9/10, do recommend). They explain the concept like this:
“The less we engage in pleasant activities, the worse our mood can become… The downward spiral can be turned around by positive activities, by making an effort in deliberatley trying to be more active.”
In other words, if we don’t make the intentional choice to focus on and engage in good things, we’ll just sink further into the void like how one would sink into an oversized beanbag chair (I hate oversized chairs).
Easier said than done, I know. I don’t think I’ve ever suffered from legitimate depression, but I do have regular cases of anxiety. When I only focus on my anxiety, it gets worse. But when I engage in fun activities, it goes away.
Mental health isn’t fun or fashionable to talk about (although we should probably, as a culture, become more comfortable talking about it). However, I encourage you to keep a check on yours and reach out to people you trust if you feel like you might be heading down a bad path.
As for me, I’ve been slowly recovering this week. Here’s to a better weekend next time!